goddamhypocrite

i'm so cozy :)

"Lolita, light of my life, fire of my loins. My sin, my soul. Lo-lee-ta: the tip of the tongue taking a trip of three steps down the palate to tap, at three, on the teeth. Lo. Lee. Ta.

She was Lo, plain Lo, in the morning, standing four feet ten in one sock. She was Lola in slacks. She was Dolly at school. She was Dolores on the dotted line. But in my arms she was always Lolita.

Did she have a precursor? She did, indeed she did. In point of fact, there might have been no Lolita at all had I not loved, one summer, a certain initial girl-child. In a princedom by the sea. Oh when? About as many years before Lolita was born as my age was that summer. You can always count on a murderer for a fancy prose style.

Ladies and gentlemen of the jury, exhibit number one is what the seraphs, the misinformed, simple, noble-winged seraphs, envied. Look at this tangle of thorns."


that is probably my favorite opener. though its like not JUST a line. hahaha.

it's from Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov and I really like it.



now im of to find something for me to do. wish me luck?

i feel like a fucking NUT CASE.

Summer is here. I kinda feel like i should still be in school though. It ended awkwardly. I've spent most of my days primarily with Cody and Courtney. which is prettty tight. I haven't been "wasting" it by my standards, but i do agree with Cody when he says he should be more productive. Cause I should. I should, i don't know, get a JOB or something. Though my days have been filled, i still feel like im missing something and it's put me in quite the mood. I just feel unsatisfied i suppose, which could be due to my anti-activeness. Finally watching Weeds with Cody and Courtney so they can get caught up so I can finally watch the new episodes which have TEMPTED ME SOOOOO MUCHHH. Still haven't got my license. working on it though! i want more beach. more bob dylan. and moreee chocolate milk. and condensed wouldnt be so bad either.

Conconully is coming up. pumped.




FUCKKKKKK.

So: im sitting in second period US history right now. Nothing is happeneing. Nobody talks to me. I think they see me as that "artsy faggy freak" except for Leah and Phillip who would also fall under those tags . Hahahha thank you, Action class. I usually text but nobodys responding so it is giving me a lot of time to think. So, there is this thing that I reallllllllly want. And have wanted for a good long while now. And it seems that my attempts are fruitful and I want to think that they are, but there is a logical side of me that is telling me that it just might not happen. So when I realize this about everyotherday, I prepare my self for the let down, (hold on the teachers back)(ok, its good) but then I spring right back into it. I don't know. I guess all im wondering is whether or not to even attempt or save my self from possible embarassment.


In other news, summer is almost here. About 6 hours of school left now. Im stoked.

I got a car. Its a piece of shit 88 honda accord and I love it. Let me list a few of its qualities.

Gold paint.
White rims.
License plate frame that reads "if mom says no, call 1800grandma".
It squeaks when you turn the steering wheel REAALLLY LOUD.
No stereo.
You have to fiddle with the drivers power window for it to work.
It smells like a woodsy RV
And in all seriousness, runs well.



Unfortunately we are fixing the squeak and windows and putting in a new stereo.
BUT the license plate, rims, and paint STAY. :)



I hooked up with the hotty foreign exchange student, Marco. Something that I will remember FOREVER cause it was like a movie. Wow.


I think I have found the group of friends I will be with for a very long time. Which is nice because I've been looking for that. Coincidentally, with the exception of a handful who joined, it consists of everyone from from my childhood. :D. And the additions to them are even better.

Im finally seventeen as of last wednesday! Yayyyy. I feel less childlikewild.

School went well this year with the exception of mrs.chambersBITCH. Fuck her. But anyway, artistic director was great and im glad I did it and its reallly saad not having drama for the summer. Cause I think I would if I could. Pretty sure, maybe? Question mark? Im proud of the work I've done.

FIZz BiitcH is hurrrrr. She's adorable. And cody and I have agreed that she is ours (sorry, court). :] cody and I also LOSE OUR SHIT over her. No joke.


Courtney, of course, is back. I am pleased. I would have lost it.


LBP is seeing a little more of me each week we inch closer to summer.

I need to get a job. This just reminded me. I reallly need a job. I don't want one thouugh. I need $$$$$. Anybody have anygood suggestions that ARE'NT safeway or albertsons or fredmeyer?????

Mr. Davies is wandering arounnd the room. We are doing jack shit. Yay. I have said a total of about 15 words since I walked through the doorway.

I just looked out the window and noticed how shitty the weather is in comparison to yesterday. Gross. Cannibal the musical post escuela??? Hopefullly. Im like falling asleep in class. Ugggghhh. I wish we didn't have to go to class if we aren't going to do anything. Hello, time is money, thanks, sorry. Rochelle came in! What a lovely surprise. Hahaha I feel a little creepy doing this in the middle of classs. This is kinda long. Lol. Oh well, who cares, right? Exactly.

Future tattoo?
"And there's kids playing guns in the street. And one's pointing his treebranch at me. So I put my hands up, I said enough is enough, if you walk away ill walk away. And he shot me dead."

I want a little kid pointing his treebranch. With a cowboyhat and sheriffs badge. I want it kind of really bad. I love it. A lot. Thoughts?(and I do realize I have a year until this can even happen. Lolz.


Ugggh. Imma peace.

 this is Vinny.  


B T DUBS

 

so the concept of livejournal completely fucked my mind this year. But i'm determined to get it. So i am using a new journal and starting fresh.  

don't worry. ill actually use this one. lulz.




THANKS,

SKIPPER